My Way
Dear Lorenzo, I'm starting to forget our life together. I wonder if you have any idea what that feels like? I wonder if wherever you are right now...you've started to move on from me too. Started to move on to the next phase of your... Life? Maybe existence is a better word. Wherever you are now, whatever you are now, your presence is still so real, so tangible for me that I don't suppose you'll ever really seem dead to me and yet... I'm starting to create a new life without you. I work a real-ass, full-time job, and am a real-ass, single-ass mama and I am alone and I am scared but I am still here. I'm no longer vegan. I eat cheese and eggs damn near every day and they are once again two of my favorite foods. I rarely, if ever, drink anymore but I smoke weed every day like I was eighteen again albeit this time around I smoke in moderation. This time around I smoke to relax after a long hard day at work and before an ever longer, harder night of cooking, cleanin...